Monday, November 13, 2006
it's all my fault yesterday.i should have been more observant.WHY WASNT I?!!!!SHIT LAH.okay. so this was what happened.before leaving the house i switched on the lamps.one didnt light up, i thought it blew.took no notice of anything.nothing seemed abnormal.came home, still didnt notice anything amiss.the tv couldnt work. didnt care. went up to watch tv.dad and mum came home at 10+and i nearly died. apparently when the light and tv couldnt be switched on i SHOULD have checked it out.one part of the house tripped, and that included the air pumps for the kois. i came down and mum scolded the shit outta me.dad was totally silent. i could see how distraught he was.more than 7 HUGE kois died.ALL BECAUSE OF ME.he loved them, SO MUCH.they were so huge.his fave one was longer than my thigh, thicker than my thigh.so now, you understand his pain?i so wanted to cry, but couldnt.i saw his face in denial.he couldnt fish it out. held it in his hands, hoping to see its gills move once more. how i wish he would scold me, slap me instead.keeping quiet only made me feel worse. i'm sorry. i'm really sorry dad.mum called me a murderer.fine.T___Tall right. asides that. min showed me dong bang shin ki MVs.jaejoong. HOT. changmin. CUTE.lol.here they are..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mM15K5z8-7Mand..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfVkOmK52kwwaii~
wrote in the notebook @ 12:20 AM
